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Seeing a lot of eating-disorder related progress pictures.
The first picture was of me when I was 15. I rarely ever ate and when I did eat my body would usually reject it. What little diet I did have consisted mostly of liquids. I remember when that skirt came in the mail, I wore it once because I thought I looked huge in it. That was about two years deep into what would be the hardest struggle of my life.
The second picture is of me when I was 17. I went to Ontario to see my family and my best friend. I think I wore a bathing suit once that summer. That summer I was so depressed I binge-ate constantly. I ate literally anything I could get my hands on. About a year into my recovery, my boyfriend at the time was constantly telling me how much he preferred me when I was sick. He knew I had an eating disorder and yet he badgered me constantly about “getting fat” which is why I fell into such poor eating habits. He would leave for work and I would literally lock the door and run to the kitchen and eat everything I could. I laid in bed all summer, eating and crying. It was fucking depressing.
The last picture is my most recent mirror photo. I don’t take a lot of them because I’m a lot happier when I don’t stand in front of the mirror and stare at myself. I still have days when I’m absolutely disgusted with myself but they are few and far between. I know I’m in a much better place mentally. I eat better (though that’s not saying much) and I make an effort to exercise to some degree on a regular basis.
The thing I’m most proud about, is not feeling the urge to restrict myself but knowing when enough is enough. If I want pizza, I have pizza, I just don’t eat half of it. If I want poutine, I eat poutine, just not four servings of it. I mostly find myself craving salads and fruit, which makes me happy, although I don’t restrict myself to ice cream when I want it.
I want to be healthier, and I want to be in good shape, but I feel it’s better for me to find my good place mentally before I start really pushing myself, because I know I’ll fall into bad habits of not eating and working out excessively.
I’m not 100% better. I don’t even know if I’m 80% better. All I know is that I am healthier, happier and more comfortable. Recovery is possible and it’s an amazing feeling to know that one day when I have kids, I won’t have all these insecurities and health issues that I project onto them.
I want to be the happiest, healthiest form of myself, but I know it’s a process and I’m just glad to be on the road I am.


reblog if u a lil ugly

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I wish tumblr was like survivor and we could vote people off the island

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if i start talking to you about really stupid shit and im not trying to look intelligent anymore that means youve done it. obtained true trust levels. god tier friendship. 

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how is it cultural appropriation for a buddhist woman to get a tattoo of buddha solely because shes white.. like.. shes literally a buddhist? its her culture too?? you have no right to say shes appropriating anything when she actually practices buddhism and lives her life by the views of that belief system

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  • Me when I first joined Tumblr: Oh, I already reblogged this. That's too bad.
  • Me now: I reblogged this every day for the last three weeks and I'mma do it again. I don't give a fuck.
They’re like, 12 The correct way to refer to anyone younger than you (via guy)

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when someone keeps trying to take a pic of u when u already said no


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you’re as irrelevant as “ueue” in the word “queue”

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To all the Tumblr users who tend to use tags very liberally:


Let’s play a game.

Type the following words into your tags box, then post the first automatic tag that comes up.

you, also, what, when, why, how, look, because, never

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